So today is the first day of 7 foods. As I got up this morning hungry, I thought about my only real breakfast option - coffee and apples. A little dread set in. A little panic set in. Community accountability set in. Oh no set in.
I was reminded that this is not about just denying myself food, not just about being hungry, not just about accomplishment, not even just about disciplining myself. As a matter of fact, it is not about me at all. Fasting encompasses all of these elements for the purpose of connection with God. So, today as I feel a hunger pain, as I deny myself food, as I accomplish the goal for a minute, an hour, a day, as I discipline myself I will ask God what He wants of me, what needs to be revealed to me, what repentance from excess do I need to make. In this moments, I will try to quiet my spirit and ask God to speak.
By the way, snatched up a starburst off my desk and got it half chewed before I realized what I was doing. Spit it out. Wow did it taste good.
I will miss you sweet sugary little goodnesses.